Monday, January 14, 2008
today's just one of those days where certain things hit you and you feel so choked and suffocated again. you know when you try to forget things you really bury it somewhere deep like ten feet under and expect it to never surface again. but no, in reality, memories are just like a hantu, they haunt you every now and then, and you feel shitty bout yourself all over again. im so tired, like there's this 500kg baggage on me that i just cant get rid of. and sometimes, you just really wonder if it was just the willingness of the heart allowing the baggage to reside, resulting all these issues. there are just certain things that you can't erase and rewind and when these things stand in the way of how your heart functions then there is a problem. maybe the wear and tear was just too much for the not so steel-like heart to take. i really hate this feeling. i could cry until i go blind but i know i'd wake up the next morning, regretting and laughing over my own silliness. it's high time i get these issues out of my head because it's not really enriching my life right now.
now my life's a mess, cos i couldnt love you any less. you cannot unbreak broken.
