Saturday, May 30, 2009
omg im in mourning now :( my itchy hands couldnt resist not clicking to check my results since everyone is talking about it. urgh! but either way i have to check it sooner or later within 2 weeks. but maybe if i checked it later there could be some miracle! (as if) argh what the shit this is damn bad im damn sad! the only module that i was banking on to get a good grade which could possibly pull my CAP up, turned out to be a nightmare! that teeny weeny little bit of hope left in me just died off. omg what the hell went wrong!! >:( i should have improved for this sem but what the hell i did worse than last sem! i cant believe it. i feel like a part of me just died. & im looking at my results again and again, hoping that the grades will change, hoping that im not seeing things, but no the same grades are still staring right at me. it feels like i just got a really tight bitch slap! & now its no longer dean's-list-here-i-come, its more like hey-i-cant-wait-to-be-on-the-kick-out-list!
yknow what time is it? its not tiger time, its time to quit school! GAH!
sigh but what if im really not cut out for this.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
yesterday marked the end of my first year in uni which is like really fast! so fast that i didnt even notice it! time flies when you're having fun which is kinda true since i played/slacked around like 90% of the time and studying for only 10% of the time which is really a suicide attempt when it comes to finals. i shouldn't keep up with such behaviours next sem, but thats what i always tell myself and just cant seem to stick to it. but time spent enjoying isnt considered as time wasted! it makes my life more fulfilling at least i know that my life wasnt all about slogging my guts out all the way. end of the first year and if you expected some moving speech, im not gonna give one. all i can say is that im really thankful for having met the special bunch of people i've met in my first year in uni, who made going to school (on some days, i really hate fridays this sem! i better plan my timetable well next sem) so much more fun and bearable :) & its not just about fun okay, im also really thankful for those who really helped/motivated me along the way in my studies when im such a blur block & a lazy fat ass who cant be bothered to check up on academic stuff in school. i sound like im all ready to make a speech for hong xing da jiang.
& im craving for alcohol/beer! this craving needs to be satisfied!! i got a craving to go for a shave too!
FREEDOM HERE I COME! its time to play hehe
Saturday, May 2, 2009
生病了! gah im having a fever and a bad headache now and i cant sit down for an hour without feeling the urge to vomit! dear body, dont fail me now! freedom is so close yet so far away!
i realised today that i have 2 textbooks and 1 course pac to finish in less than two days! i never knew how thick my textbooks were until i first opened them today. GG!
