Wait, I Go Pee

Saturday, February 16, 2008

it's a slap from the right, a slap from the left, and then a slap from everywhere. it's just getting more and more difficult, and i really wonder, where did those days go to? i don't know what i should be feeling anymore. i find myself beginning to question myself more as the days go by. how did it end up like this and in what way have i made it this way. i guess these sort of answers aren't that easy to find out cause....there isn't really an answer that i want to hear, is there?

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless

i guess i was too harsh.

4 weeks ago on this very same day, i went to the very same place. & today i prayed, i prayed for a friend who once prayed for me, who taught me how to pray. i got a bag of sweets today.

i know what i want, but it's really out of my grasp and i can't do nuts about it

you know the feeling of being totally surrendered, not cause you want to surrender but because you have no choice and control has been wrestled out of your grasp and you've got no grip at all, the ball's in some other person's court and all you can do is stand ready and wait for them to hit it back at you before you get the chance to take it up again

and this time, throw it well

but sometimes the game ends before you get the ball back...

me me maggi me;
4:46 PM