Till now, I'm still confused and not entirely convinced I'm going to make the right choice. Something's niggling at me. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it's just so.....UGHHHHHHHHH CONFUSING. Utterly utterly utterly confusing and I hate it because it's going NOWHERE in my brain and it's all just going round and round and round. It's all about opportunity cost, isn't it? You weigh up the situation and decide whether its better in your interest to continue or just stop.
When we decide to give it up, we fall short of what we probably could have had. What we could have gained in comparison to what we gave up.
& to my utmost dismay, I also realised with shock horror and absolute madness that I do miss you, even if you have gone from my life for like.....MONTHS. Some things do feel different without you around, and perhaps I should apologise. But I have absolutely no idea what to apologise for. Maybe it is you that should do the apologising? or maybe no one has to apologise at all. HMMMMMMMMMM? But I have somehow got used to fact that we probably won't be speaking to each other for the rest of our lives even though kinda gets to me but I have to live with it. I hope things will get better for you.
&& it really sucks when you know you can't do anything about a situation or someone's problem, even though you'd really really like to help the person. Guess the only thing you can do at that point is listen and insert appropriately sympathetic noises at appropriate moments. But then and again, isn't life kind of about these kind of situations?
We all want to help those that need help, but unfortunately we can't because we have no power to. Ultimately, it is up to the person to decide what course of action she/he must take, and follow it through.
<3
I feel like I need another holiday even though i just got back from one not too long ago. What do you do when you feel like you've lost yourself/your identity/what you really are along the way? Okay maybe I'm just being hormonal. Zzz me! I need to pee. I feel like going for a night drive later. 123 get ready lets go!
Oh and happy birthday dear nicole <3
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