Saturday, September 27, 2008
zzz my internet connection is spoilt again and im sucking the life out of someone else's modem now which is illegal i think but sssh keep my dirty little secret please.
i was watching the leona lewis - footprints in the sand video and i felt very sad after watching it. if i ever get rich one day, i have a vision to send food over to the hungry every week and start up schools there. i dont know if thats possible because i cant imagine myself being rich. money money money must be funny in a rich mans world.
& that day, and maybe another day, i saw the look of lonliness in someone's eyes something which i havent seen before when she was with us. though im not that close to her, but somehow i can sense it, that even though she is surrounded with so many friends around her, she still seems lonely, cos those friends somehow come across as superficial somewhat to me la. we can be surrounded by so many people in sch even people we know but yet still feel so lonely. then it got me thinking, that we have so many friends on facebook like 319 friends but seriously eh most of them i only know that they exist in this world and nothing else. friends that i consider true friends can be counted with just one hand omg how little! it used to be at least two hands but the amount is dwindling as i grow older, why?! if i plot it out its a downward sloping curve! by the time i am damn old with fraying white hair all wrinkled up like a raisin with sagging boobs, i wont have any friends to attend my funeral anymore if this downward sloping trend continues on. ohno. but i think its really hard if you have so many friends because it gets very hard to maintain the close friendship with everyone, because you have to give everyone a piece of you, and you wont have me time already, and i guess thats why the number of real friends that i have are dwindling because they face the same thing too. we lose some friends in the process due to circumstances and we pick the ones that we wanna keep by our side. which got me to realise that we all actually pick our friends! hmm what are the reasons we use to pick the friends that we keep?
ok i dont really know what im rambling about, psychology is killing me softly. 2 more chapters to go!! school is starting i cant wait for mid terms to be over!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
for a moment i felt like going to ub to study haha! or maybe to be more precise to go US to study! or to be even more precise i feel like going for a holiday in the US like newyork! omg i wanna go to Darien Lake Theme Park! it looks so fun it sounds so fun im sure its damn fun! "*Just to let you know … Darien Lake used to be a former 6 Flags amusement park (which is world-renown for its extreme roller coasters that plunge fear and excitement in all riders)"
dont you feel like going there too! why cant singapore have a decent theme park? escape theme park is too cui already! suddenly im very inspired to go quickly sign up for exchange programmes already i wanna go next sem! and purposely get lost there so i dont need to come back, i will live under brooklyn bridge, dont tell anyone!
Friday, September 19, 2008
very sad, one of the hamsters died today. the poor little soul looked so sick this whole period dropping so much hair and looking thinner each day, while the other hamster is growing fatter and healthier each day. it made its final last struggle before it was out of breath and lay there so stiff with its eyes open. i bet it was in pain and felt so scared that it was gonna die. no wonder the past few days its been making so much noise. & the vet that time still say its not sick kns go and die.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
omg how can anyone look so alike?! its so freaky its like looking at a clone! i got a shock of my life, my heart almost jumped out of my mouth :O i dont even dare ask for the name. maybe today is clone day, i've been seeing alot of people who look like alot of people. i saw one that looks like phong's brother, another who looks like firman(eew). & i think i need a haircut i look like a zazaza monster! & i always look forward to wednesday but because of stupid spore film group project im tied down and i cant go out tonight already. projects suck! & we're supposed to film a film soon and we're moving along the lines of singapore horror and superstition (sounds quite fun to do but very laychay) & im secretly quite scared to film horror (better go pray first and sacrifice a chicken), even though im secretly the first person in the group to think of a storyline already. urgh i hate mid terms & pimples, my pimple is growing each day, malnutrition pimple no more! :(
i think its very nice to catch up with a long lost friend again, the feeling's quite good (: i feel good nehnehnehnehneh
Thursday, September 4, 2008
i cant wait for the weekends to come! so that i can finally have the time to sit down and watch some shows! greek is out gossip girl is out and now antm cycle 11 has started too! :D im very excited i've so much shows to catch up on so burn the textbooks! i think im a little kuku today so much so that i dont feel like opening my mouth to talk to anyone, i dont really feel myself i feel like im out of my body today. out of the body experience. must be the lack of sleep! haha so sorry to whoever if you think im just ignoring you or make you feel like you're boring me out of my brains! cos thats not the case! okay im supposed to try to go sleep early because i dont wanna be toxic like britney anymore. 939 you're supposed to drink your water! im gonna set alarm to wake up at 9 to drink water and go back to sleep. & no more heavy metal and angry days! out of the blue i suddenly had an atomic kitten fetish the previous night, & i still think jenny's so hot! where did you get your body from?
