i was watching the leona lewis - footprints in the sand video and i felt very sad after watching it. if i ever get rich one day, i have a vision to send food over to the hungry every week and start up schools there. i dont know if thats possible because i cant imagine myself being rich. money money money must be funny in a rich mans world.
& that day, and maybe another day, i saw the look of lonliness in someone's eyes something which i havent seen before when she was with us. though im not that close to her, but somehow i can sense it, that even though she is surrounded with so many friends around her, she still seems lonely, cos those friends somehow come across as superficial somewhat to me la. we can be surrounded by so many people in sch even people we know but yet still feel so lonely. then it got me thinking, that we have so many friends on facebook like 319 friends but seriously eh most of them i only know that they exist in this world and nothing else. friends that i consider true friends can be counted with just one hand omg how little! it used to be at least two hands but the amount is dwindling as i grow older, why?! if i plot it out its a downward sloping curve! by the time i am damn old with fraying white hair all wrinkled up like a raisin with sagging boobs, i wont have any friends to attend my funeral anymore if this downward sloping trend continues on. ohno. but i think its really hard if you have so many friends because it gets very hard to maintain the close friendship with everyone, because you have to give everyone a piece of you, and you wont have me time already, and i guess thats why the number of real friends that i have are dwindling because they face the same thing too. we lose some friends in the process due to circumstances and we pick the ones that we wanna keep by our side. which got me to realise that we all actually pick our friends! hmm what are the reasons we use to pick the friends that we keep?
ok i dont really know what im rambling about, psychology is killing me softly. 2 more chapters to go!! school is starting i cant wait for mid terms to be over!
me me maggi me;
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